its the 4th day of the week and 10mins left of it. thank god friday is coming. the boss is going overseas next week so i guess i have all myself to tend for for the next 7 days.

caught tendacious d the pick of destiny with adrian and mona. its been awhile since i laughed this hard and hearing how adrian laughs just makes me carry on without stops. a mere 8 dollars for 1.5hrs of stress free, total escape.

how good would it be if money could buy happiness for say eternity. so how much would you charge me for that.

posted by ikaira @ 11:57 PM, ,


Once upon a time, there lived a family of four in the suburbs of Rome. The family consisted of the parents and a boy and a girl aged 12 and 14. They had been corn farmers for generations from their great great grandfather passed on to the great grandfather so on and so for. Never breaking out of the proverty trap, they sought for one shot to move out of their situation to finally live a decent life.

one day, a fairy appeared and gave the boy a mission. The boy was to scour through the corn field aimed to find the biggest corn, and the fairy will give the family an additional 100 identical corns of that size to the family, which will triple the crop's yield for the season. But the catch is that he can only go through the corn field once and he can only touch once corn and the corn he touched will be the one he chooses.

so the boy went on his mission wanting to find the biggest corn. He went through one corn after another, observing every corn in detail to find the biggest one. He measured every single corn right down to the inches. At the side of his head, subconsciously he knew there was a bigger corn in front and that thought kept him from touching any corn.

3 quarts through the field and he has yet to touch any corn, not wanting to settle with a small corn.

not before long, the boy was at the end of the field, he ended up taking the last corn which was about 30% the size of the biggest corn he saw previously in the field. But there were no choices left for him, with a thwarted heart, he took it.


exactly one year later, the fairy appeared and gave the same mission to the boy again.

memories of what happened a year ago were still fresh. Personally, he blamed himself for not being able to get the biggest corn and thus not being able to bring his family out of the poor. With that thought constantly around, he went on the mission.

this time, while not even 1 quarter into the corn field, he chosed his corn. Although subconsciously he knew that wasn't the biggest corn in the field, he took it because he didn't want to end up like last year having to take one that he ain satisfied with. This time, he knew he would be happy with his choice although it ain the best in the field.

Morale of the story :

Dun choose la, the best is always not reserved for you.
When ur chance comes, grab it by the collar.

posted by ikaira @ 1:29 PM, ,


hey there hey there.

my rmit application has been accepted and am wondering just how busy will i be when the time arrives. the curiculum effectively starts on jan 3 and i have lessons on 3 4 5 6 8 9 10 11 15 16 17 18. on the bright side,it assures me of not being too free and maybe, just maybe like wat ed mentioned, i'll love my classmates? maybe i'll have classmates like fiona or yvonne? woot, am just wondering how im gonna embrace it within my stride. not the ladies, but the schedule.

well, as the saying goes in chinese (shi jian shi zhao cu lai de, bu shi shuo mei you de) and literally it means "time is find one, not say dun have one" yup yup, this aligns the mindset for the next 2 years. at least i still have the weekends off, 2 days marked as personal.

the festive season is round the corner and its time to recollect wats been happening for this past year and maybe set a few resolutions for the upcoming one. i nv used to set such targets, but then, it dosen harm right.

the first on my list - strike some toto. the express ticket out of proverty and out of the ghetto. the fastest and maybe the cheapest way to land a million.

posted by ikaira @ 3:16 PM, ,


oh sweet sweet sunday....

sunday is always gd if companied with soccer and free time alone. weekdays are all used to surge up the ladder that it makes sunday even meaningful. a personal time to recap whats happened for the past week, to look at things as an individual without conformity, to enjoy the liberation of freedom as literally as possible.

oh sweet sweet sunday...

posted by ikaira @ 3:08 PM, ,


life is all about balance isn it? it sure is... u need the long to cover the short. the rich to substantiate the poor. the beautiful to hide the ugly. and thats wats happening to my life now

the office hrs are hectic, as hectic as can be. 100% concentrating, finding every single hole to cover it up, making everything nice and splendid.

but once the clock strikes 1800 and when the B2 button is depressed and thus lights up, its a 180 degree change. a ke belakang pusing, the world just seems to twirl 1/2 that pace, seconds seems to be travelling at the pace of minutes.

just admit it la, im just an empty shell. when u knock, its a kong~~ nothings inside.

forced to be..... only to be.....

i guess everydays like that ain it, forced to be strong, circumstances.

lets hope the new year comes sooner, so much to expect, scared excitment, the irony

posted by ikaira @ 8:49 PM, ,


im feeling it again, the pressure to need to make it out, to be something, to be rich, to lead a high life, u know... those kinda days.

had dinner with my poly mates, and this further reignited the idea. most of them are already climbing the corporate ladder or simply shaping their life in the way they want. and where am i? it is exactly this sort of days which frustrate the hell out of me

here i am, stuck with 1.5years of liability. no matter how hard i push or keep up with the high standard, i still only see the 450 odd increase each month. so much so much so much out there that i want to do, but all out of my reach. to add on, the only thing that is within my reach is something that i do not want to do. enlighten me please, wat purpose is this for?

sometimes its these sort of days that make a.w.o.l seem all so worthwhile.

posted by ikaira @ 11:30 PM, ,


after a night of craze and havoc, you still wake up alone, facing the window on the left and the corridor on the right, walking to the carpark alone, eating alone. looking at mothers nagging, kids running around digs it deeper. at the same time, everybody has their alone stories and many to tell

i guess it ain change a bit after all

posted by ikaira @ 9:45 PM, ,


these few days have been nice? esp with a few drops of liquor and companionship of frens, those from sec sch and those from poly.

always good to see that they have their future planned out or so i heard, but who actually do as they plan is another thing. some being confined to repay bank loans or even resort to taking 2 jobs just to save up for degree. but on the other end of the spectrum, theres always those who can afford a degree anytime but choose not to cos i dunno why as well. but the one thing that we all agree upon is that a degree is a must, no matter wat. so my frens, i wish u the best, may u get that piece of paper soon, dun let circumstances illusioned u nor let the environment change ur sentiments.

it was pure luck that we met at where we met, thinking of it, one different choice would have made a whole lot of difference, but we met in the end, and move along the same path for awhile.
and along that path some science took place. lets keep it real yea!

i doubt any of those i mentioned would have chance upon what im writting, but yea, if a blog is just a instrument to pass on message unknowingly, wouldnt it be too scheming? so it shall be a little secret of my own, for im always seen to be carefree and nv constricted. well we nv know wats behind right.

Cheers to life,
if only i can feel this same very way each day

posted by ikaira @ 7:41 AM, ,


to those that do not know, i've decided to take up a part time degree at sim, econs and finance from RMIT, some australia degree.

its a step to catch up with the elites for i know im not capable to get into elite school. i'll be able to graduate way before them and catch up with them in terms of experience and time... hopefully this master plan works out just as planned.

not that i blame them, but i do wonder wat would turn out of me if i have parents who know more about the world, more about the trends and viability of this degree or that degree, this industry or that or simply just how the world turns. instead, im left to run, wander, to trail and error. ppl say this is the hard way and when u trully achieve, u gained it by ur own efforts, with ur own sweat. but there are others who have a much better time using lesser effort acheiving the same results

sometimes we see elites getting stuffs so easily, everything is a bed of roses for them, things just come naturally, they just arrive at their doorstep.

but is it actually tt gd being an elite? always conform to elite's standard, appeareance, ettiquote.

could an elite actually be a heartlander? if tt ever happens, wouldnt he have numerous masks? one for the heart land friends, one for the corporate world, one for the heartlander or elite lady that caught his fancy, one for the ladies' parents.

dun we all wear masks? perfection is when the masks are so well hidden that the public eye only sees your face thou ur wearing it.

sales man and network marketers i salute u.

posted by ikaira @ 10:51 AM, ,


these two days have been gd. some light has been shed upon the lost and left behind. like they say no man is an island. am glad i found fellow islands around. in fact they have been around, just being camouflaged or maybe i didnt probe much.

the thing is its not easy to find ppl with such ambition or dream and this age.

anyway, enough said....

before its too late, but im sure it'll reach the intended receipient....

my beloved god-mother, its been quite awhile since we've acquainted. to me, ur someone who knows ur path and destiny and will strive towards it disregarding of how the common eye will judge.

for ur guts, i hope for u, glory
for ur efforts, i hope for u, reward

cheers,
i think u know who i intend to send this to.

posted by ikaira @ 1:32 PM, ,


life lesson for the day

" when u meet obstacles along your way "

" do not change your goal, change your activities to achieve that goal "

so easy to spell it out in words

if only it were so easy to prove it out in actions

posted by ikaira @ 8:14 PM, ,


i am fucking motivated now, so please dun let me falter.

im gonna do it my way! just keep me farking motivated.

we shall see.

posted by ikaira @ 12:24 AM, ,