its nice to know that most of your school mates are getting new jobs, earning better pay and adding nicer and nicer sentences in the resume.
but i cant help to feel sad. maybe its because i feel im just as qualified, or why didnt such opportunities didnt come banging on my door, maybe a little jealous that they are able to be in the financial industry (i know its stupid so im not going to tell you why i feel so), or just simply envious that they are able to decide on their own fate.
since stone age there has already been non-stop rambling about the redundancy or ns, how most ppl feel this is the worst spent life of their life, personally im quite sick of hearing about it and even more sick to talk about it
but i cant feel shitty because targets have been met and new targets are not yet in sight. it simply means life is boring and theres nothing to look forward to. from getting some award during the first 3 mths, getting the job that ppl dreamt of, starting the next phrase of life way before required, getting that extra patch on the shoulder, yadda yadda.
athought every hour, minute to every second of life only passes by once, and by not treasuring that single part, ill definately regret for not trying harder or missing out on that opportunity that is possible, i feel the need to let time whizz.
some say this is burnout or a short break for a longer journey
today, the colleugue said you are too free thats why you got so much time to do stupid things.
hopefully this is the case
posted by ikaira @ 2:28 AM,
