We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

posted by ikaira @ 12:50 PM, ,


woken by a happy three friend ringtone early in the morning at 830, only to find myself tossing and turning just to find that comfortable spot where the brain could retreat without having to plan for the next strategic move.

everyday is war man, everyday is a new battle to be won, only when victory is absolute then the most dangerous and powerful grey matter up there has find its resting place.

tts just one of the reasons why i off my hp when i sleep. thou it would always be better with a warm-blooded bolster to hug, sleeping is like one of the few sacred activities where u can enjoy doing alone. we are all forced to slp, an activity which we cannot choose to forgo or not do just like everyone else

today's tempo is slow, i feel like waking up to the sound of crashing waves, to the warm sunshine. a perfect scene to read some newspaper and get lost in nature.

argh, too perfect.

should stop dreaming....

posted by ikaira @ 8:59 AM, ,


51 THINGS GIRLS WANT GUYS TO KNOW

1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.
2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Expensive shoes also do the trick.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)
17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm: a). having a fat day. b). not feeling "connected" to you. c). blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I want to be Madonna.
31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you - and for you to recognise this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
44. I like porn.
45. I'll always love Orsm more. That's just the way it is. Sorry. Deal with it.
46. I love holding your buns in the palms of my hands.
47. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
48. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
49. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
50. I remember everything about our relationship.
51. You should know all this and more with-out my telling you.

posted by ikaira @ 3:47 PM, ,


I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home

posted by ikaira @ 6:03 PM, ,


my heart is playing with my heart.
i've shan myself away from such thought that i nv really start thinkin of it for a long time.
when it hit that soft spot again, i feel like my hearts playing with my heart.
positive side of things are too premature.
possibilities are like thousand light years away.
just let things flow.. was the logical thought tts exactly behind my head.
hopefully, it'll stay oblivous.
but it still feels gd to be back in the game
maybe i was too far away from the game that a simple thing shakes me.

stupid, so easily shaken.

guys out there keep note:

love and not lust.
dun touch a heart only to break it.
cos touching it is easy.
and breaking it is easier.

maybe i should speak to my own ears

posted by ikaira @ 1:56 AM, ,


... dun slow down ...
.... keep going ....
.... keep up the high standard ....
.... dun let them catch u ....
.... leave them behind ....
... far far away behind ...
.... burn them ....
... burn them hard ...

posted by ikaira @ 1:32 PM, ,


while reviewing some of my older posts, i realize i question alot of things in the past. asking myself questions, asking questions that i have absolutely no idea wats the answer.

it seems to me that i've not been asking myself questions nowadays. hopefully im not accepting my environment as wat it is. question are part and parcel of achieving the final answer. answer which will unlock mysteries and make us understand in our own language and theory.

is it due to regimentation? getting too sucked into the 2 years that i became too machined and forgotten about other goals and paths?

balance,
let me stay balanced,
ns is just a stepping stone for a brighter future,
something to get over and done with,

dun linger too deep yea,
if not, humanity will sip out just like how a stream flows.

posted by ikaira @ 12:50 AM, ,


a one day stint in logistics admin and comm further distanced me from choosing staff admin as my vocation. lets hope this feel continues till the end of the deployment and my heart will be more than willing to let my body become an fi.

the picture is getting more crystal by the day,
its a gd sign

speaking of crystal....

"ARE WE CRYSTAL"
"ARE WE DIAMOND"
"ARE WE MARBLE"

posted by ikaira @ 5:50 PM, ,


what do you do, when it all falls apart?

wat if ur only someone lets u down as well, the one that u thought will nv let u go, always be there and support u at the most difficult times.

lets face it, parents will go someday. they wun be around all the way. dun expect to call ur dad when the car breaks down, when u drove urself out of petrol or got lost in some of the desserted streets.

depend on frens when sooner or later they will have their own family to fend for and their own kids to guide and nuture? do they have the time for u?

we are born alone and shall be alone.

posted by ikaira @ 4:01 PM, ,


THE VERONICAS LYRICS
"When It All Falls Apart"
I'm having the day from hell,
It wasn't all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No [x2]
Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

posted by ikaira @ 1:18 PM, ,


a 5c production - singapore dreaming. awaited with much anticipation only to be met by disppointment. disappointed in the sense that they made the show so real in the sense its "singapore-like" that it becomes sarcastic.

another point which kept me complaining away during the show was how our asian values were being projected in the show. if i were to be a foreigner whose watching show, it'll be illusioned, very illusioned indeed.

one example, the show depicts that we asians need alot of "face", cannot let go of our pride, even till the sense that it includes jail sentences.

i shan barb on too much but theres still this thing which i cant really accept. are we singaporeans really always complaining? complain that money not enough, complain that ppl are urinating in the lifts? and in the midst of complaining, we nv actually decide to step out of our comfort zone and own the problem? complaining that the degree holders eventually become our boss and order us around while one can always get a degree and compete with them on the same level.

complaining that parents didnt give enough, and even expect parents to give and provide thou one has already gone into adulthood with a family and job.

but one thing to take note - - we are asians! yellow skinned, short with only a 5 inch. that is our roots, our background. our style and culture should nv be looked upon as a disgrace.

stay asian all my yellow skinned friends

posted by ikaira @ 11:44 PM, ,


price of fuel for transportation each day - $3

for the price of $3, i can

so much for the price of 3 dollars, am i living in bratislava or something?

posted by ikaira @ 6:05 PM, ,


this thing have been bogging my mind for far too long, maybe that explains y i not been writing for quite awhile. thou so, i've yet come to a decision.

the big question is ???for comfort or glory???

being colour blind, lots of chances have already eluded me and i believe i took it well in my stride, problems from choices of poly courses to playing billiard to being transfered from a potential oct squad to my current squad etc...

and due to this genetic disorder, i am caged with 3 choices for my vocation... staff admin, field instructor and service and technical. service and technical is definitely out of the question, im not going to be a handy man during my 2 years of ns. so that leaves me with 2 choices, comfort or glory......................

while thinking of the different points, im always able to come up with counter points which will make me do a ke balakang pusing, which leaves me at the same spot where i started.

argh~~~ whenever i think of this, its like thousand thoughts flying tru my head, this feeling of insecurity is shitty.


quote of the day: todays suffering is for tml's comfort.

on another note : wat if tml nv arrives? the ship nv see land over the horizon? thats y we need lighthouse and different points of our lives, to guide us, nudge us in the right direction, not to falter.


stay true... but wat is true anyway

posted by ikaira @ 1:43 PM, ,


movies are a great way to relax and get totally sucked in until it starts playing with ur mind. caught devil wears prada. its about a backstreet lady who gets a job as the secretary of the boss in a highflying fashion magazine, runway. while learning the ropes and conforming with the expectation of the industry, she gets to make big decisions and learns a far more valuable lesson rather than financial security, a lesson in life.

wat set me thinking was the balancing the trying to strive higher mentality and staying humane mindset. it makes it doublely hard to make a conscience call while one is trying to strive higher. while climbing, a slight mistake would greatly decrease ur chances being chosen.

posted by ikaira @ 3:27 AM, ,