whole again
Saturday, November 12, 2005
does a country become the same after a war?
i guess this is the feeling im comtemplating with at the moment.
Since the short trip to india, things were never the same.
nowadaes, i feel so seperated, so unwhole. it feels like i left a piece of myself somewhere, showhow not being able to retrive and fix it back to the last spot of the puzzle.
its not that i miss india, its not that i cant let go. its totally nothing to do with india at all.
on the other hand, it is also india that let opened and never opened window, embraced all never provoked thoughts, insights, blended and ingrained them into one of the roots deep down in the ground
so now, just like returning to the native place, do i still belong here this era, this country? or just that the world is just a stage always waiting for showtime?
showtime influenced by environment and surrounding needed to impress ppl and show that u have the quality?... wateva's wateva.
Time and the world wun stop ticking or spinning just becos of this mere being with this unlogical thought. just gotta embrace and accept it and bring it along with mi. not to forget but to bring it along.
along till time and surrounding nv mattered.
posted by ikaira @ 2:46 AM,
