was away for cny at the grand parent's place. thou i was not the driver, the 8 hr squeeze at the back sit with my mum and an elder wasnt gd at all. u know that ur the youngest and have to sit in the middle so that the 2 older folks would have a better time but that also means u resorted yourself to torture for the crawling minutes.

overall it was a great getaway. the peace and serenity was much appreciated in due of life back here. no worries of food, money, acomplishments, aims, watsoever. each day was filled with great kampong food, company and not least the gambling sessions.

one of the main reasons of returning back was because of the grandmother. the grandpa left recently and shes all alone inside. thou she had 8 children, none are by her side during normal days. news had also been said that shes becoming weaker by the day.

somehow due to this, i keep wonder whats the gist of one's life.

her era was to feed the 8 kids and raise them well (thou no easy feat, it still seems kinda common). subsequently the baton was passed on to my dad where most of his brothers settled in sg, so i guess tt was the main part of their life to leave their comfort zone in search for a better life in the little red dot. and now, the baton's on my hands, so wat will i be known for in my life? to parent a kid?

posted by ikaira @ 3:39 AM, ,


There was this article on Friday’s the new paper. A U.S.A cabby returned 2 showcases of diamonds even though he was only being paid 30 cents tip for a $10.70 cab fare.

“I’m a hard worker. “The soft-spoken cabby said. “I enjoy my life. I’m satisfied. I’m not going to take someone else’s money or property to make me rich. I don’t want it that way” He also mentioned that taking the diamonds for himself would “darken his soul”

There were a total of 31 diamonds inside, its not just one or two, its 2 freaking whole showcases of it. If I were in his shoes, while earning merely U.S $300 dollars per week, it would resembled striking 1.5million toto jackpot

If it were a few years back while in the teenage years, im sure I’ll keep it for myself and easily bare with a darkened soul, (not that anyone can see them, and being white really ain that enticing), I would feel “it’s like a gift from heaven, I’m finally getting lucky”

But at this age with firm (most of the time I hope) values in place, the feeling of gaining from someone else’s lost isn’t so appealing at all, precisely because I just lost my handphone and all my contacts, I can truly feel it, FEEL IT. Imagine the agony and anguish the person would have to go through, just by messing up his heart was mean enough the money from the diamonds could have been for his sick mother’s medical bills, it could have been for his daughter’s education, it could have been so much more or less.

While looking from the outside, I’m quite sure I would do the right thing. But what matters most is when the situation stares at you right in the eye, when possibilities of getting out of the poverty cycle, jealousy, unfairness of the world all come into place.

Now, I’m not so sure what I would have done.

The irony of clearly knowing whats right and realizing that I might actually be doing the other.

posted by ikaira @ 10:01 AM, ,


sometimes, its during times like this where i trully feel money is good. it can buy back the happiness and gratification you've just lost. a mere 100-200 dollars can get everything u lose back, the gadets might even be better than the previous ones, newer, more function, better accessibility.

but fuck, wat about my contacts.... damn... wat a great start to 2007. at least that made sure theres only one direction for where 2007 will head, up that is.

sometimes life cant be good all the way, a lil bad keeps you on the toes, makes u treasure the good when ur in it.

tts life, wat a bed of rose

posted by ikaira @ 4:46 PM, ,


they say the best way to "see" something is during self realisation. totally agree. pls give me more of such self realisation days. btw, i ain referring to anything serious, i just managed to better "understand" the annual report.

haix, why did i not find this passion when i was studying efma.

posted by ikaira @ 10:08 AM, ,